it is really interesting to see different drum styles
the different grooves and fill ins that drummers would do
it's just awesome
to find that kind of personal groove is pretty difficult
you'd have to be really confident with what beats you're playing
i think once you've got that covered
the music timing the tempos and multiple riffs
only than can you find that sweet groove and style just
perfect for you.

just waiting and waiting for that sweet spot in my playing to come up
still waiting

i've always known that you were beautiful
there's just something about you that i just can't get my mind off
even when i tried so much, all i did was block the thought of you temporarily
i'm hooked. but things will never be
one question still rings in my head
have you always resented me

ben 10 and ben 10 alien force is simply AWESOME!
catch it every night at 1am- 2am on cartoon network. if only i was ben 10. than that would be whoah!!! haha

i find myself sitting down at home right now. thinking what am i suppose to do. i have to start putting my head in the game. getting my priorities right and all. studies is the most important thing right now. i screwed up all my previous papers for ALL my subjects, and the only way for me to redeem myself and not flunk and screw up my semester is if i score all the way for this upcoming finals.

so may laziness not be on my side and may i study diligently.

i'm disappointed with myself. lately, i've been skipping classes, not doing work and causing other people to be at the losing end all due to me being lazy. what is wrong with me? am i a such a bad guy that this is the punishment that i have to suffer? this isn't right. i know i can do work if i wanted to, but all i'm doing is being lazy.

i've also been feeling down lately. it's just the random feeling of sadness and disappointment that one would go through when they find out that they can't remember the last time they were happy. even now, i can't recall the last time i was actually happy. this is therefore a really saddening thing to go through because you face everyday with sadness and disappointment. what is live without happiness.

"find the joy in your life", this is one memorable quotes i've heard so far. i think it's true. for me, i've yet to find it. but when i do, i surely won't be the same.

Birthday Jam 2009

There was a jam session, followed by dinner. And we were off home after that.

Oh god, i've been skipping school pretty often now. and it's only the 4th day of school. this is bad, really bad. and going to school is like friggin boring, i don't pay attention and i don't even study. the reality of it is very real.

i'm lazy as hell. that is the biggest problem in my life right now. i'm a fuckin lazy bastard. ask anyone. they'll vouch for me. if only there was a way for me to not be a lazy motherfucker. somebody please advise..

i'm tired, lazy and bored.

help! i can't get to sleep! i've been trying to get to sleep since 2am but i couldn't. i kept rolling and rolling in bed for an hour..

and now it's 3.37am and the worst thing is, i gotta be up by 6.30am!!

HHHHHEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPP! HELP!

the word help looks funny when you just look at it and try to analyse it word by word. doesn't it.

ok, maybe i'm ready to sleep now. lets just hope i wake up on time tomorrow morning.. or else, it's definitely gonna screw up my day's planning.

and i found this in one of my folders. it's this years hari raya photo.

is it just me or does anybody else go through the same thing every now and then. i'm talking about waking up. and what happens in the split second when you do wake up.

alright, i went to sleep yesterday night and i woke up this morning. i looked at the clock on my wall, 7am. and i was in a total daze. i was thinking and thinking, what day is it today? i almost panicked for reasons i thought i'll be late for work or schoool. but all that turn out fine when i remembered that i had school but it starts at 1pm. so with no worries, i went back to sleep.

this is one of the random things which does happen to me on some mornings.

dear journal,

i just reached home and i haven't showered yet. it's close to 12am now and i need to be awake tomorrow by 5am.

i should probably go shower now..


ooh, and i saw this kick as jacket over at G2000 earlier. but the downside of it is that it has like the turtle neck thingy on the bottom side of the jacket. but still it kicks ass!

it seems today that all you see
is violence in movies and sex on tv
but where were the good old fashion values
that we used to rely.

left with 1 day before school starts. damn.

dear whosoever,

i
am
really
not
into
what
i
think
i
am.

whoah
typing
this
way
is
starting
to
give
me
a
headache.

anyways, schools starting off soon. and i'm still gonna work part- time as well. it'll probably be tiring, so they say. but let's see how it goes.


oh, and yesterday while working, this 2 girls came up to me and asked, "Excuse me, are you guys hiring?".
then they said they were 15! i was like, "Isn't that kinda young.." so most probably they're not gonna get to work at our place. i mean isn't the legal age for work's like 16?

ps, i hate my brother's friends. i don't even know them but i hate their guts.

went for huda's chalet yesterday night. got back home freakin late.
luckily there was transportation provided! hell ya to the sani brothers!



i feel so lazy to blog. there's like nothing much to blog about. what am i suppose to do? write about my day like;
"in the morning, i woke up and the first thing i thought was, what day is it today?!? am i having jamming later on?!?"

"then the jam we had was great. i expected to cock up at the last song, vices like vipers, but hell, it was all good."

"john's a funny ass guy, he's chinese but i feel like he kinda sounds like a malay when he talks!"


oh and to all of whom who reads my blog, I'M VERY BAD AT GIVING AND RECEIVING SIGNALS! HHAHAA

hari raya has come and passed. some how, i don't feel keen on this year's hari raya.
it's really depressing to feel this way but i have no reason why i behave like so.
i'm was rather angsty during the first day and luckily was a little better the next.
in an overall, it feels like just another hari raya to me. just that the only difference
was this year, i didn't had the feeling.

random thoughts;

- my bro wants to get a skateboard. i'm thinking of sharing it with him so that i
could also use the deck once in a while.
- this year green packets wasn't fantastic. but i'm still greatful.
- i need to work. i need the money.
- i need to find time for gym and also for going to the skatepark with the rest of the fellas.
- some other thing which i can't remember right now.
- i passed managed to clear all my modules. thankfully!

1 more day to hari raya. great.

i feel like buying a new pair of sticks.
hmm, so it's either gonna be a pair of
vic firth 55A or some pro- mark sticks.

i think it's been two weeks into the holidays.
and i'm freakin bored out of my mind here.


there's nothing to do. can't find work,
and there hari raya's coming. well that's gotta be fun.
i guess..


somebody please call me out. let's just hang or some
shit like that.
there's pretty much nothing to do if everyone else
is busy doing their stuffs.

dear journal,

today was the day i was looking forward
to this week.

i was going to have dinner with a friend


but it seems like the odds were against
me having dinner with my friend.
something came up and the whole plan
was cancelled.


how does this makes me feel.
i feel down. i'd better go rest and
clear my mind.

i'm addicted to WAFFLES! they're so darn good!



it's always nice to know that you're there

dear journal,

i feel so tired. more so due to lack of sleep.
staying awake sucks to the ding dong core
when there's nothing really productive for
me to do.

well i think i'll go make a couple of waffles
for myself then i'll call it a night.

mmm.. waffles... (watery mouth*)