Oh god, i've been skipping school pretty often now. and it's only the 4th day of school. this is bad, really bad. and going to school is like friggin boring, i don't pay attention and i don't even study. the reality of it is very real.

i'm lazy as hell. that is the biggest problem in my life right now. i'm a fuckin lazy bastard. ask anyone. they'll vouch for me. if only there was a way for me to not be a lazy motherfucker. somebody please advise..

i'm tired, lazy and bored.

help! i can't get to sleep! i've been trying to get to sleep since 2am but i couldn't. i kept rolling and rolling in bed for an hour..

and now it's 3.37am and the worst thing is, i gotta be up by 6.30am!!

HHHHHEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPP! HELP!

the word help looks funny when you just look at it and try to analyse it word by word. doesn't it.

ok, maybe i'm ready to sleep now. lets just hope i wake up on time tomorrow morning.. or else, it's definitely gonna screw up my day's planning.

and i found this in one of my folders. it's this years hari raya photo.

is it just me or does anybody else go through the same thing every now and then. i'm talking about waking up. and what happens in the split second when you do wake up.

alright, i went to sleep yesterday night and i woke up this morning. i looked at the clock on my wall, 7am. and i was in a total daze. i was thinking and thinking, what day is it today? i almost panicked for reasons i thought i'll be late for work or schoool. but all that turn out fine when i remembered that i had school but it starts at 1pm. so with no worries, i went back to sleep.

this is one of the random things which does happen to me on some mornings.

dear journal,

i just reached home and i haven't showered yet. it's close to 12am now and i need to be awake tomorrow by 5am.

i should probably go shower now..


ooh, and i saw this kick as jacket over at G2000 earlier. but the downside of it is that it has like the turtle neck thingy on the bottom side of the jacket. but still it kicks ass!

it seems today that all you see
is violence in movies and sex on tv
but where were the good old fashion values
that we used to rely.

left with 1 day before school starts. damn.

dear whosoever,

i
am
really
not
into
what
i
think
i
am.

whoah
typing
this
way
is
starting
to
give
me
a
headache.

anyways, schools starting off soon. and i'm still gonna work part- time as well. it'll probably be tiring, so they say. but let's see how it goes.


oh, and yesterday while working, this 2 girls came up to me and asked, "Excuse me, are you guys hiring?".
then they said they were 15! i was like, "Isn't that kinda young.." so most probably they're not gonna get to work at our place. i mean isn't the legal age for work's like 16?

ps, i hate my brother's friends. i don't even know them but i hate their guts.

went for huda's chalet yesterday night. got back home freakin late.
luckily there was transportation provided! hell ya to the sani brothers!



i feel so lazy to blog. there's like nothing much to blog about. what am i suppose to do? write about my day like;
"in the morning, i woke up and the first thing i thought was, what day is it today?!? am i having jamming later on?!?"

"then the jam we had was great. i expected to cock up at the last song, vices like vipers, but hell, it was all good."

"john's a funny ass guy, he's chinese but i feel like he kinda sounds like a malay when he talks!"


oh and to all of whom who reads my blog, I'M VERY BAD AT GIVING AND RECEIVING SIGNALS! HHAHAA

hari raya has come and passed. some how, i don't feel keen on this year's hari raya.
it's really depressing to feel this way but i have no reason why i behave like so.
i'm was rather angsty during the first day and luckily was a little better the next.
in an overall, it feels like just another hari raya to me. just that the only difference
was this year, i didn't had the feeling.

random thoughts;

- my bro wants to get a skateboard. i'm thinking of sharing it with him so that i
could also use the deck once in a while.
- this year green packets wasn't fantastic. but i'm still greatful.
- i need to work. i need the money.
- i need to find time for gym and also for going to the skatepark with the rest of the fellas.
- some other thing which i can't remember right now.
- i passed managed to clear all my modules. thankfully!

1 more day to hari raya. great.

i feel like buying a new pair of sticks.
hmm, so it's either gonna be a pair of
vic firth 55A or some pro- mark sticks.

i think it's been two weeks into the holidays.
and i'm freakin bored out of my mind here.


there's nothing to do. can't find work,
and there hari raya's coming. well that's gotta be fun.
i guess..


somebody please call me out. let's just hang or some
shit like that.
there's pretty much nothing to do if everyone else
is busy doing their stuffs.

dear journal,

today was the day i was looking forward
to this week.

i was going to have dinner with a friend


but it seems like the odds were against
me having dinner with my friend.
something came up and the whole plan
was cancelled.


how does this makes me feel.
i feel down. i'd better go rest and
clear my mind.

i'm addicted to WAFFLES! they're so darn good!



it's always nice to know that you're there

dear journal,

i feel so tired. more so due to lack of sleep.
staying awake sucks to the ding dong core
when there's nothing really productive for
me to do.

well i think i'll go make a couple of waffles
for myself then i'll call it a night.

mmm.. waffles... (watery mouth*)

woke up a lil late for work.
did overtime reach home then i
got my break fast.



during work, my phone cocked up
on me. it kept going on and off
by itself and suddenly it stopped
and i checked the phone.
MY CONTACTS ARE ALL GONE!!!



well i guess there's a bright side
on this. i get a new beginning.
something like that.


so old and new friends, talk to me
again on msn or sms me to inform me
of your phone number.

thank you.

exams are finally over. best not talk about it.
alright, so it's officially the holidays for me
and looks like free time, helping out family and
work would be the only thing taking up my time.

more work= more money= more time hanging out

looks like i'd like to work more for this holidays.
i'm not getting any allowance whatsoever so
working would definitely help in my financial status.



alex passed his tp yesterday and he gave me a lift
from school to the mrt in his car earlier today.
and tomorrow is gawaine's tp. all the best to him
in that.

seems like alot of my friends took and passed their
tp, namely, ralph syahrul and alex. next to come,
gawaine.

went back to my secondary school on teachers' day earlier
this week, it was more to see my friends instead of
the teachers. most of them still looks and
acts the same, but the highlight for the event was
definitely my hair.

everyone was like, "wow dan look at your hair!"
some of them were impressed but others still
think that i look better with short hair.

well no matter, by april next year,
my hair would be short.


oh and i met some nice dance girls whom i
see around in school. but remembering their names
are a lil hard. so next time hopefully i can
memmorise each and every one of their names.

IN THE RAW By Crashdiet

Like a black cat whining in the alley
Like a pet locked up in a cage
I see you strip right down to your toe nail
Feel the rush flowin' rabid in my veins

Feel the customs doing you a srip search
Like a vet i'm giving you the cure
Feel the power coming from my hip lurch
Is she the same fuck that i did before

SEX SHOCK

In the raw tonite
With your face down to the floor
You're my nakedness sensation
From your waist but i want more
Then i shake you to the core
When you're caught in the raw

Get your hand cuffs ready for a good time
Beat your whip my tan is turning blue
Fascination twister of the fine line
I become you notorious taboo

Take it off and get down
My god it's like my head's burnin' up
My mind's so dirty
Get it on,on and on
Ooh, your're my sin ful side

SEX SHOCK

In the raw tonite
With your face down to the floor
You're my nakedness sensation
From your waist but i want more
Then i shake you to the core
When you're caught in the raw

i wanna put in pictures in this post but
blogger seems to be running slow or something
has happened that is making it impossible for me
to put in pictures..

so never mind that then.

well,

it's high time for me to start mugging for tmr's paper!
so i shall begin now.

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2


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go!

wow, i haven't been updating for a long time.
the most reasonable excuse i could think of it that
i'm simply lazy.


but there's somethings in my head which i wanna get it out.
so here i am trying to spill it out.



alright, first thing first, exams are a real bitch.
then, there's also the fact that i haven't been jamming
due to my fellow bandmates are busy with their stuffs
which is understandable.

but in order to jam you need cash, and that is a problem.
i've never been the working type, i'm surviving solely on my allowance.
it's not much but it's sufficient. so i really have to
watch out on what i'm burning my money away with.


and lastly, i feel like i
can't do it.
i want to but i can't. it just doesn't feel right.

it's the thrill of the moment that i'm chasing for
and it's hard to get if you know what i mean.


and to end off, fasting has already begun and
that means no more allowance. shit.
and i wanna jam so much right now, i'm like
suffering from the drawback of heroin by not jamming my head off.


so hopefully i can get a decent session soon. i need it.