i'm disappointed with myself. lately, i've been skipping classes, not doing work and causing other people to be at the losing end all due to me being lazy. what is wrong with me? am i a such a bad guy that this is the punishment that i have to suffer? this isn't right. i know i can do work if i wanted to, but all i'm doing is being lazy.

i've also been feeling down lately. it's just the random feeling of sadness and disappointment that one would go through when they find out that they can't remember the last time they were happy. even now, i can't recall the last time i was actually happy. this is therefore a really saddening thing to go through because you face everyday with sadness and disappointment. what is live without happiness.

"find the joy in your life", this is one memorable quotes i've heard so far. i think it's true. for me, i've yet to find it. but when i do, i surely won't be the same.